Those of us who have publicly been crying in the wilderness the past few years saying "housing prices will fall, unemployment will sky rocket, the wars will drag on forever with no obvious gains and weather will be both UNUSUAL and DANGEROUS" -- like me, for example -- could justifiably go "well, I told you so" but here, I think, is the true lesson.
There is a spiritual interconnectedness to all people and to all living things. There is a God and an essence of God in everything. If we choose to live in balance with that "spiritual harmony" then all is (for the most part) pretty good. Veer too far from that balance, then poof . . . life can get a little "complex".
THIS MONTH is when (I believe) Mother Nature "acts out". I expect there to be rainfall and floods on an unprecedented scale. And soon, say 4 months down the road, or so, I expect the next wave of "confusion" regarding the solvency and liquidity of some of our major banks.
Currency problems -- a very sharp de-valuation of the dollar is one possibility -- could also become a major problem in the late Summer or Fall, more likely (I think) late September or October.
2010 is what people fear in 2012.
2012 is like Y2K, I believe -- a lot of hype. I think 2012 will be fairly calm. In my opinion, it is the years leading up to 2012 and then the years immediately following -- especially between 2015-2020, I bet, when things change most dramatically.
In fact, I think things will look fairly rosy (relatively speaking) starting in 2011. I actually kind of like what I see in the second half of 2011. I think that is the year we start to turn the corner a bit and find a more balanced world.
And there are likely to be incredible technological advances in the latter part of this decade -- especially in both health care and space travel. But this year? Weeeeeellllllll . . .
Change can be good or it can be scary. It is up to us to find the silver lining in any black clouds that may appear on the scene.
But get ready . . . NOW is when the world VISIBLY begins changing. THIS MONTH.
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Prophet -- and Loss
Being Psychic and doing radio shows and making movies and hangin' with Hollywood celebs, dating TV actresses and singers, etc etc etc -- well THAT sounds good, right?
But here is the other side of that coin . . .
When I was 22, my father had a massive coronary and died, literally, right in front of me
I "started seeing things" and I was stupid enough to mention it to my good ole boy father-in-law who decided the psycho Yankee needed to vamoose and his beauty queen Southern Belle daughter needed to come home,
or else forfeit her inheritance and so she did
and I tried to get back with her but it was a little "complicated" since her Daddy let it be known that if I ever stepped foot on his property, a big mansion in the Historic Register of Homes, on top of a big ole hill . . . that he would kill me
and EVERYONE knew that he wasn't joking so . . . one more in the debit column
then I had a girl friend, a year later, a beautiful funny sexual little thing, who got leukemia when she was 22 and died 5 years later . . . also not such a rockn good time
and then (and there is a lot in between, too, but these are the "highlights") -- my baby Lehna was stillborn and I saw her delivered, dead -- a big beautiful baby and later I figured out that my employer -- a hospital chain -- made a mistake that likely killed her and then tried to hide it.
I then threw away my career 'cause I was sad, first, and crazy, second -- I was a 200 - 300 K a year Management Consultant -- and well, perhaps you see my point
everything in life -- it comes with a price . . .
But here is the other side of that coin . . .
When I was 22, my father had a massive coronary and died, literally, right in front of me
I "started seeing things" and I was stupid enough to mention it to my good ole boy father-in-law who decided the psycho Yankee needed to vamoose and his beauty queen Southern Belle daughter needed to come home,
or else forfeit her inheritance and so she did
and I tried to get back with her but it was a little "complicated" since her Daddy let it be known that if I ever stepped foot on his property, a big mansion in the Historic Register of Homes, on top of a big ole hill . . . that he would kill me
and EVERYONE knew that he wasn't joking so . . . one more in the debit column
then I had a girl friend, a year later, a beautiful funny sexual little thing, who got leukemia when she was 22 and died 5 years later . . . also not such a rockn good time
and then (and there is a lot in between, too, but these are the "highlights") -- my baby Lehna was stillborn and I saw her delivered, dead -- a big beautiful baby and later I figured out that my employer -- a hospital chain -- made a mistake that likely killed her and then tried to hide it.
I then threw away my career 'cause I was sad, first, and crazy, second -- I was a 200 - 300 K a year Management Consultant -- and well, perhaps you see my point
everything in life -- it comes with a price . . .
My Life As Performance Art -- for my Next Trick . . .
Got a call tonight about another movie -- this one shoots on Saturday (in theory after I've already left Casperville USA and headed north to the San Francisco Bay) and it is interesting to me how quickly I have vibed with the idea of being a professional actor and how it juxtaposes with my career as a professional psychic.
Ironically (or not -- depending on your frame of reference) the more I try to detach and distance myself from my identity as a professional psychic -- "The Rock n Roll Psychic" -- the more attention I seem to get. Every time I do the "Greta Garbo" thang and try to walk -- the more voices seem to rise in the wilderness saying "don't go, bucko . . . stay stay stay."
Interesting . . . very interesting.
I am enjoying this little run as an actor; however, I feel as if right now my whole life is "performance art" and I am publicly pulling rabbits out of unknown hats -- it is all some magickal walk on the wild side, art and metaphysics and love and loss and a bevy of strange and curious creatures all lined up in a parallel universe trying desperately to join in . . . be a part of the "show".
I am taking chances -- crazy chances -- but that is the thing about Art . . . sometimes you have got to push the envelope sooooo hard. So hard.
I am a high wire act trying not to fall . . . I will continue to pull the rabbits out of whatever hat I can find. Life is a daring adventure . . .
or -- it is nothing.*
Nothing at all.
-- My friend Linda Bryant asked -- after reading this and all the other things I've written -- if I perhaps have my North Node in Leo. My answer is in the "Comments" section but I have decided it actually kind of "adds" to the story so I have re-posted it here, as well.
-- Actually, my North Node is in Capricorn. But I have a Leo Moon . . .
on top of that, my Moon is in the third house and I have a Gemini Ascendant so the third house has some significance due to its association with the Rising Sign
and the ruler of the Ascendant, Mercury, is right on the M.C. -- "a born talker"...
But the Nodes would suggest -- and I think this is true -- that I am a traditionalist and, at heart, more interested in stability and less inclined towards being the wild gypsy mystic poet
I have a "skill" (or "gift") and a drive towards using that on a larger scale. BUT -- if it "were left up to me" I would NEVER have come back to do this . . . The reason I try to "quit" so often is that maintaining this really flies in the face of what I want -- FOR MYSELF
but, as several psychic pals have said to me -- "subtle didn't get it". I wanted my house and big screen TV's and Italian shoes. That is what I wanted --
but obviously "Spirit wanted me for something else" -- so "The Perfect Storm" had to hit me and that worked like this . . .
I lost my little Lehna and my employer turned out to be my baby's killer -- a perfect storm, an ethical nightmare . . . literally, a living Hell.
Karma.
Everyone can talk all they want about free will but I believe there is a guiding hand at work and whacked as this sounds, I believe I am usually maneuvered back to this "Psychic World" -- it even sounds like an amusement park hahahaha. "Come on kids, let's go to Psychic World!!" -- no matter how hard I have tried to have a "normal, conventional" life.
A daring adventure --
played out on a public stage
predictions of world events . . . all these stories and notes, movies and radio shows . . . I say what I am going to do and then my little corner of the world can watch with me and see if I can do it (or not)
a magic(k) act -- LIVE . . . that, really, IS my life
*"Life is a daring adventure or it is nothing." -- Helen Keller
Ironically (or not -- depending on your frame of reference) the more I try to detach and distance myself from my identity as a professional psychic -- "The Rock n Roll Psychic" -- the more attention I seem to get. Every time I do the "Greta Garbo" thang and try to walk -- the more voices seem to rise in the wilderness saying "don't go, bucko . . . stay stay stay."
Interesting . . . very interesting.
I am enjoying this little run as an actor; however, I feel as if right now my whole life is "performance art" and I am publicly pulling rabbits out of unknown hats -- it is all some magickal walk on the wild side, art and metaphysics and love and loss and a bevy of strange and curious creatures all lined up in a parallel universe trying desperately to join in . . . be a part of the "show".
I am taking chances -- crazy chances -- but that is the thing about Art . . . sometimes you have got to push the envelope sooooo hard. So hard.
I am a high wire act trying not to fall . . . I will continue to pull the rabbits out of whatever hat I can find. Life is a daring adventure . . .
or -- it is nothing.*
Nothing at all.
-- My friend Linda Bryant asked -- after reading this and all the other things I've written -- if I perhaps have my North Node in Leo. My answer is in the "Comments" section but I have decided it actually kind of "adds" to the story so I have re-posted it here, as well.
-- Actually, my North Node is in Capricorn. But I have a Leo Moon . . .
on top of that, my Moon is in the third house and I have a Gemini Ascendant so the third house has some significance due to its association with the Rising Sign
and the ruler of the Ascendant, Mercury, is right on the M.C. -- "a born talker"...
But the Nodes would suggest -- and I think this is true -- that I am a traditionalist and, at heart, more interested in stability and less inclined towards being the wild gypsy mystic poet
I have a "skill" (or "gift") and a drive towards using that on a larger scale. BUT -- if it "were left up to me" I would NEVER have come back to do this . . . The reason I try to "quit" so often is that maintaining this really flies in the face of what I want -- FOR MYSELF
but, as several psychic pals have said to me -- "subtle didn't get it". I wanted my house and big screen TV's and Italian shoes. That is what I wanted --
but obviously "Spirit wanted me for something else" -- so "The Perfect Storm" had to hit me and that worked like this . . .
I lost my little Lehna and my employer turned out to be my baby's killer -- a perfect storm, an ethical nightmare . . . literally, a living Hell.
Karma.
Everyone can talk all they want about free will but I believe there is a guiding hand at work and whacked as this sounds, I believe I am usually maneuvered back to this "Psychic World" -- it even sounds like an amusement park hahahaha. "Come on kids, let's go to Psychic World!!" -- no matter how hard I have tried to have a "normal, conventional" life.
A daring adventure --
played out on a public stage
predictions of world events . . . all these stories and notes, movies and radio shows . . . I say what I am going to do and then my little corner of the world can watch with me and see if I can do it (or not)
a magic(k) act -- LIVE . . . that, really, IS my life
*"Life is a daring adventure or it is nothing." -- Helen Keller
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Pics
Some of my radio appearances over the past 6 months
A still from "That Ole Devil Called Love" -- photo by Andrew Kim
Another still from "That Ole Devil Called Love" -- photo by Andrew Kim
Various "Head Shots"
Acting Resume
Actors I have appeared on screen withManifestation 101
Magick keeps happenin' -- on Thursday, I said "I want someone to leave something. I want to find something good, literally, just laying on the ground". In my mind, I pictured this.
This is after my last "experiment" -- where I visualized a girl "picking me up" -- which, literally, happened about 90 minutes later. She actually followed me out of the store (again, no lie) and asked me to give her a ride to her car -- which was only 2 blocks away.
This think and it's so stuff . . . well, actually, it kinda rocks.
Also, did I mention I've been in 8 movies in the past month ?? Anyway, back to my story . . .
The very next day, no lie !!, SITTING ON TOP OF THE DUMPSTER, 2 big boxes of clothes -- good, expensive, relatively new clothes -- that fit, probably worth about $2000 . . . And I have a fairly "unique" body, small waist, big shoulders, long arms . . .
so the odds of a box of clothes just being "my size" -- on top of the fact that someone would throw all this in the dumpster (36 hours after I visualized finding a "treasure" just laying on the ground) -- probably not good.
Shirts by 7 Diamonds, Pronto - Uomo, and Joseph & Feiss. Three pairs of dress pants (perfect fit) and a pair of $300 True Religion Jeans (31 inch waist and they fit !!), a brand new suit jacket 40L with the tags still on it (in a bag), other shirts and jackets, a pair of swim trunks, about a dozen t-shirts and 6 ties, too !!
I am now a rich, HIP gay boy so I blend as an actor here in LA -- Ms. Kross says it's so (even better, I am going to SF in 2 days hahahahaha !!) --
AND he also left a Director's Chair, too. Which I carted off, as well. Movie Magick. Ask and . . .
This is after my last "experiment" -- where I visualized a girl "picking me up" -- which, literally, happened about 90 minutes later. She actually followed me out of the store (again, no lie) and asked me to give her a ride to her car -- which was only 2 blocks away.
This think and it's so stuff . . . well, actually, it kinda rocks.
Also, did I mention I've been in 8 movies in the past month ?? Anyway, back to my story . . .
The very next day, no lie !!, SITTING ON TOP OF THE DUMPSTER, 2 big boxes of clothes -- good, expensive, relatively new clothes -- that fit, probably worth about $2000 . . . And I have a fairly "unique" body, small waist, big shoulders, long arms . . .
so the odds of a box of clothes just being "my size" -- on top of the fact that someone would throw all this in the dumpster (36 hours after I visualized finding a "treasure" just laying on the ground) -- probably not good.
Shirts by 7 Diamonds, Pronto - Uomo, and Joseph & Feiss. Three pairs of dress pants (perfect fit) and a pair of $300 True Religion Jeans (31 inch waist and they fit !!), a brand new suit jacket 40L with the tags still on it (in a bag), other shirts and jackets, a pair of swim trunks, about a dozen t-shirts and 6 ties, too !!
I am now a rich, HIP gay boy so I blend as an actor here in LA -- Ms. Kross says it's so (even better, I am going to SF in 2 days hahahahaha !!) --
AND he also left a Director's Chair, too. Which I carted off, as well. Movie Magick. Ask and . . .
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Life is an Adventure
** "Life is a daring adventure or it is nothing" **
** "Optimism is the faith that leads to achievement. Nothing can be done without hope and confidence." **
** "What I am looking for is not out there, it is in me." **
all quotes -- Helen Keller
********
I decided to "get out of the way" a few months ago and try to roll with whatever came down. This wasn't the "easiest" thing to do hahahahaha. . .
especially since I had TOTALLY exhausted whatever financial reserves I had accumulated from my days as an executive -- ALL that was gone -- and I was doing NOTHING, in the conventional, "oh dude you have got to get some money" sense to fix it . . . I just "believed" I would be OK . . .
I have lived off readings and nickels in the mattress for over 3 years now -- amazing :)
over the last couple of months -- especially the last 3 weeks -- I have had to make very quick eenie meenie minie wtf choices when 2 (or more) of the same thing popped up bang bang, sometimes just hours apart. Which movie, which choice HEEEELLLLLLPPPPP . . .
I have wanted to leave LA for the past 10 weeks yet there was always one more thing -- I was teaching a class, "The Psychic Justice Tour" was coming, I was in a movie, and then ANOTHER movie . . . SOMETHING -- that kept pushing it back a week . . . and that week got pushed back another week and then it was 2 months later and I'm still here.
I have no money, no established home, most of my clothes (and all of my furniture and personal items) are in 4 different storage units -- in 4 different cities !! . . .
and yet, somehow, I can show up on professional movie sets and give off a vibe of supreme confidence (not arrogant but contained) and it isn't an act . . . it is legit.
But how?
Trust me, too, when I say that I DID NOT want to go "oh, by the way . . . psychic readings? I don't think so" . . . but it was "insistent" and so, in that "OK, God, I'm trustn ya" state of mind I changed that, too.
My life TRULY is Mr. Toad's Wild Ride but I am riding it out . . . and I feel that my adventure (and the forth-coming chronicle of that adventure -- 'cause, baby, my life is for sure en-ter-tain-ing) has helped me in some, as yet, undefined way.
Artist or psychic, psychic or artist? Somehow I believe that soon, very soon, I will find a new magickal hybrid that combines them both in ways not usually seen . . .
How do you ride a tiger? I guess you just jump on and don't count the seconds until you're going to fall off. Whatever time you're on is magick . . . ride, Tigerboy, ride :)
** "Optimism is the faith that leads to achievement. Nothing can be done without hope and confidence." **
** "What I am looking for is not out there, it is in me." **
all quotes -- Helen Keller
********
I decided to "get out of the way" a few months ago and try to roll with whatever came down. This wasn't the "easiest" thing to do hahahahaha. . .
especially since I had TOTALLY exhausted whatever financial reserves I had accumulated from my days as an executive -- ALL that was gone -- and I was doing NOTHING, in the conventional, "oh dude you have got to get some money" sense to fix it . . . I just "believed" I would be OK . . .
I have lived off readings and nickels in the mattress for over 3 years now -- amazing :)
over the last couple of months -- especially the last 3 weeks -- I have had to make very quick eenie meenie minie wtf choices when 2 (or more) of the same thing popped up bang bang, sometimes just hours apart. Which movie, which choice HEEEELLLLLLPPPPP . . .
I have wanted to leave LA for the past 10 weeks yet there was always one more thing -- I was teaching a class, "The Psychic Justice Tour" was coming, I was in a movie, and then ANOTHER movie . . . SOMETHING -- that kept pushing it back a week . . . and that week got pushed back another week and then it was 2 months later and I'm still here.
I have no money, no established home, most of my clothes (and all of my furniture and personal items) are in 4 different storage units -- in 4 different cities !! . . .
and yet, somehow, I can show up on professional movie sets and give off a vibe of supreme confidence (not arrogant but contained) and it isn't an act . . . it is legit.
But how?
Trust me, too, when I say that I DID NOT want to go "oh, by the way . . . psychic readings? I don't think so" . . . but it was "insistent" and so, in that "OK, God, I'm trustn ya" state of mind I changed that, too.
My life TRULY is Mr. Toad's Wild Ride but I am riding it out . . . and I feel that my adventure (and the forth-coming chronicle of that adventure -- 'cause, baby, my life is for sure en-ter-tain-ing) has helped me in some, as yet, undefined way.
Artist or psychic, psychic or artist? Somehow I believe that soon, very soon, I will find a new magickal hybrid that combines them both in ways not usually seen . . .
How do you ride a tiger? I guess you just jump on and don't count the seconds until you're going to fall off. Whatever time you're on is magick . . . ride, Tigerboy, ride :)
Thursday, April 8, 2010
The Flood(s)
I think a lot of people are starting to recognize that the Earth is in a bit of an upheaval, with earthquakes almost every other day and other assorted ecological nightmares creeping out from the boogie man's closet every month. Record cold and snowfall -- this after a time when people thought "global warming" just meant milder winters and less chance of the Titanic accidentally hitting another iceberg.
After all, we are a conceited "God is on our Side" group and have lost the respect for our Mother Earth that she deserves. What could happen that FEMA and a telethon couldn't fix?
Actually, quite a lot.
I have been saying FOR YEARS that 2012 wasn't going to be the scary Armageddon, reach for the Bible year, that Hollywood looks to . . . the big year, to me, has always been 2010.
I have been pretty vocal in my prediction of record setting, like nothing anyone's ever seen floods happening this Spring and poof -- my prediction has started to come true. Rhode Island and the rest of New England . . . record floods; floods and deadly mud slides in Rio, intense flooding and widespread outbreaks of cholera in Zambia.
Iowa, England, Peru -- the list of places impacted by floods is growing weekly. And I believe that trend is going to continue. But here's the deal -- the floods bring more than just deep water. They displace critters and parasites that most people don't care to find crawling on their basement floors.
Sewage systems that are dysfunctional, waste of various flavors let loose -- airborne diseases and problems with the existing water supplies . . . not to mention the destruction of personal property and loss of life -- all these things (and more) are likely to happen this Spring.
Floods and earthquakes ARE the big news of 2010 . . . what this year is likely to remembered for most. This is a dangerous time -- a time of physical and spiritual cleansing.
I have walked away from my career as a psychic because I want to be able to say what I want to say without it getting muddied up by thoughts that I am sensationalizing my predictions to get attention in order to get clients.
I have waited for 30 years to give my "vision" . . . I have done these "things" in my life and in my career in order, hopefully, to have a platform to say what I need to say when the time is right.
2010 is the year. It is time to wake up . . .
After all, we are a conceited "God is on our Side" group and have lost the respect for our Mother Earth that she deserves. What could happen that FEMA and a telethon couldn't fix?
Actually, quite a lot.
I have been saying FOR YEARS that 2012 wasn't going to be the scary Armageddon, reach for the Bible year, that Hollywood looks to . . . the big year, to me, has always been 2010.
I have been pretty vocal in my prediction of record setting, like nothing anyone's ever seen floods happening this Spring and poof -- my prediction has started to come true. Rhode Island and the rest of New England . . . record floods; floods and deadly mud slides in Rio, intense flooding and widespread outbreaks of cholera in Zambia.
Iowa, England, Peru -- the list of places impacted by floods is growing weekly. And I believe that trend is going to continue. But here's the deal -- the floods bring more than just deep water. They displace critters and parasites that most people don't care to find crawling on their basement floors.
Sewage systems that are dysfunctional, waste of various flavors let loose -- airborne diseases and problems with the existing water supplies . . . not to mention the destruction of personal property and loss of life -- all these things (and more) are likely to happen this Spring.
Floods and earthquakes ARE the big news of 2010 . . . what this year is likely to remembered for most. This is a dangerous time -- a time of physical and spiritual cleansing.
I have walked away from my career as a psychic because I want to be able to say what I want to say without it getting muddied up by thoughts that I am sensationalizing my predictions to get attention in order to get clients.
I have waited for 30 years to give my "vision" . . . I have done these "things" in my life and in my career in order, hopefully, to have a platform to say what I need to say when the time is right.
2010 is the year. It is time to wake up . . .
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