*Originally posted January 24, 2011
Later this week, I will be taping an episode of "Past Lives, Present Lessons" with Tanya Douglas and Stacy Lupinacci (to be broadcast, February 1 on Z Talk Radio) and, as I usually do twice a year, I will give my "predictions" for what I see in the upcoming year.
Today, I want to focus on business opportunities -- even though I feel there are still a few "issues" yet to be worked out (these likely involve, among others, alterations and possible reductions in current pension programs, as well as some likely fluctuations in the currency market), overall I believe 2011 actually offers many opportunities for positive growth.
I think the tidal wave of conservatism is coming to a close; honestly I do . . . not that those "purists" who hold those views will change but those who only hold them because it is in style to do so -- I think they're about to switch sides. I also think companies with a more service-oriented business model will prosper while those who are strictly "bottom line" are likely to lose market share.
In other words, people want to feel as if you like them and if companies provide a loving happy environment, they are likely to be rewarded. There has been a rather remarkable rhetorical shift in America over the past 10 years and citizens of the United States, hopefully, will soon revert back to a more civil style of speaking with one another, one in which respect matters and bullying and name-calling slows down. This attitude sadly permeates much of our national discourse regarding economics and politics. I believe the "market" for that is fading and the need for more balanced middle of the road action is becoming more pressing.
Businesses will succeed or fail to the extent that they are aligned with predominant values in the market place -- so my statements so far indicate my belief that fundamental expectations about how the markets operate -- and for what purpose -- are also likely to change. My expectation is that more and more people will migrate OUT of major cities and look towards a more agrarian, slower-paced existence. The Go Go years are winding down -- and I think that's good.
Much of the manufacturing base of the United States has eroded and so the demographic model driven by migratory patterns of workers moving towards manufacturing will soon end and, if so, there is every indication that people will start going the other direction. There are a lot of places in America with decent housing opportunities that people will likely see as attractive once it becomes more common to work in virtual worlds.
Big cities often have big problems and fiscal issues in major urban centers are likely to be VERY problematic, very soon.
Businesses likely to show big gains in 2011?
1. Home health care. Medical costs, as we all know, have skyrocketed and as the population ages and hospital space becomes more crowded and more expensive (and, conversely, less effective) the move towards alternative support models will likely increase. Service providers who have competent models in place, with polite workers with at least a minimum standard core competency, (provided they provide a service that is priced correctly), could do very well in the next few years.
Improvements in self-diagnostic tools, both in price and portability, will soon become available and more effective means for online monitoring is, in my opinion, just around the corner.
This means that a booming business, for someone, is also right around the corner. Large hospitals will become more and more the last resort for consumers going forward. Just as the strip mall influenced retail patterns over the past 50 years, so too will the drive for more convenience in seeking medical care cut in to the large downtown department store hospital. People liked the fancy store with all the trimmings better, but it was quicker and easier to go 5 blocks and just pick up a couple of things, unless it was a special occasion or need.
Advances in health care diagnostics -- not necessarily care, itself but rather the ability to quickly diagnose problems -- will revolutionize medicine. More than anything, and this includes ALL other forms of technology, I believe the marriage of the computer with medicine will be the biggest business driver of the next 10 years . . . which makes the fact that I walked away from a career in which I had a very high end expertise in this world perhaps all the sadder :(
but. no matter . . .
Laser therapies will also become more common and more effective over the next couple of years, as well.
2. Transportation and Logistics. Getting things from Point A to Point B -- once fuel prices start climbing (as I predict they will) -- is something that will likely involve more planning and effective utilization of resources than in years past. Companies that can co-ordinate movement, in essence be "motion brokers", also stand to do very well in 2011.
How will this work? As shipping costs become more expensive, providing a service to small companies and individual consumers in which you co-ordinate "bundling" shipments -- so that mid-sized shipments are "volume-priced" and customer service costs for the transport company are diminished -- will also be an area where a better mousetrap will catch more mice.
3. Alternative Energy Sources. Soon, the strangle-hold of oil and gas companies will weaken and more alternative, "green" energy sources will be "in style". Transporting alternative energy sources (see above) will be a big business in the next 15-20 years, I believe, and people with an expertise in "upgrading" existing homes to meet new regulations and take advantage of the options for more "Jetsons" - like technological improvements in the home will also do quite well.
The United States economy has taken a tremendous hit and, on the whole, I believe it will rebound. BUT -- the major players will be different and an entire generation, of which I came along at the tail end, "the Baby Boomers" will find that "the better world" they were given was squandered by their own greed and so the "Golden Years" they imagined may not turn out quite the way they'd like.
Because of that, I expect there to be a pool of intelligent older workers who will continue to be part of the work force for years to come, mainly out of necessity . . . but as things begin to shift upwards, this older work force will actually turn out to be a positive driver towards more economic growth.
4. Facebook, Twitter, Myspace, Billy Bob's Techno-Chat BBQ and Madame Zelda's Virtual Playland -- social networking will be BIG -- until it stops . . . so here is my expectation for Social Networks going forward. The internet has opened up the whole world -- I have clients in Europe and Asia, as well as Canada and the Middle East . . . this couldn't really happen this way WITHOUT the internet.
BUT -- my honest opinion is that local is where it's at and more and more people will soon get off the internet and spend more time interacting with their neighbors . . . what's old is new again.
The internet will change how people get news but it will not, ultimately, change how people interact with one another. I expect a big spike upward, short-term, followed by a gradual decline. Over the next 2-3 years, more and more and MORE money will be poured in to social networking but that trend probably, in the grand scheme of things, won't last that long. In a couple of years, I expect it to slow down -- gradually at first, then quite a bit. People matter -- live, I can see you and touch you people . . . and so I think that need for real people will drive down the rates of growth for social networks.
Part of all this bells and whistles can't have 2 minutes of quiet time attitude is driven, I really do believe, by a desire to "brain wash" the average person . . . slow steady hypnotic pin ball games of the mind . . . that, too, in my opinion, is soon to change.
The good news for 2011? People are smarter than a small group of Harvard-trained bankers think they are and soon, quite soon, the world is going to change. There are hiccups and hurts on our door step. BUT, for me, I believe that soon things will turn around and the world will be a better place.
The chance for catastrophic war is there -- in many ways, a higher probability than ever. Economic ruin -- that possibility is also staring us in the face . . . but I still feel as if the world will shift to a more loving balanced energy and I think the evidence for that shift starts to appear this year.
A companion piece from January 3 "Dot Com Redux"
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
May You Live in Interesting Times
*Originally posted January 21, 2011
2011 -- soon the shit and the fan may have kind of a dangerous collision once the light bulbs turn on in those who advocated a radical conservative agenda ('cause they wanted to be part of the "group") -- not realizing that the "other" group, the one they looked down upon, would soon include them. Spring will be that "interesting time" the Chinese talk about. But, no matter, this is still a magical year . . . however, as Carl Jung once told us, "there is no coming to consciousness without pain."
That pain is right around the corner.
A plan, executed with ruthless skill, designed to destroy the middle class and steal the only thing people truly have, the value of their labor. A dangling carrot, boiled in oil, cut off right before unbelieving eyes. You've been fucked, and not in the happy oh baby orgasmic kind of way. I have offered dire economic predictions every January for the past 5 years and this, in one sense, is no different.
Back in 2007, I started publicly saying that soon States would go bankrupt -- something I don't remember other psychics, or anyone else for that matter, talking about. All part of an interesting, planned in advance, assault on the working class :( . . . I also said there would be "ghost towns" and I wasn't talking about Sunnyvale, South Dakota.
Major cities, with no work, no funds to maintain themselves . . . not a fun time.
And there's more. I wrote about it and did over a thousand hours on air talking about it . . . that "unbelievable ridiculous scenario" that I outlined, in detail, has played out almost exactly as I said it would . . .
I predicted radical reductions in state services, radical reductions in the number of policemen and firemen, predicted a public education system in crisis (I mean, who wants poor kids who can think) . . . basic infrastructure problems at every turn . . . we now have counties digging up paved roads and using gravel, cities without enough electricity to burn street lights, "brown outs" with no district fire departments -- here is a direct quote of mine, from 2007-2008, that I repeated quite a bit.
I said soon "if you have a fire in your home you had better have your Master Card ready and your Fire Safety Provider on speed dial . . . or bummer fuckn day."
So, with the wind in the sails that comes from a history of betting against the house -- and winning . . . I expect March and April to be, how should I say it, "stressful".
However, no matter what happens over the next few months, I still believe 2011 is a golden time . . . I do; there are still heads left to roll, futures to be destroyed, dreams to die. But, even still, 2011 . . . ultimately . . . is when things begin looking up.
Just not quite yet.
2011 -- soon the shit and the fan may have kind of a dangerous collision once the light bulbs turn on in those who advocated a radical conservative agenda ('cause they wanted to be part of the "group") -- not realizing that the "other" group, the one they looked down upon, would soon include them. Spring will be that "interesting time" the Chinese talk about. But, no matter, this is still a magical year . . . however, as Carl Jung once told us, "there is no coming to consciousness without pain."
That pain is right around the corner.
A plan, executed with ruthless skill, designed to destroy the middle class and steal the only thing people truly have, the value of their labor. A dangling carrot, boiled in oil, cut off right before unbelieving eyes. You've been fucked, and not in the happy oh baby orgasmic kind of way. I have offered dire economic predictions every January for the past 5 years and this, in one sense, is no different.
Back in 2007, I started publicly saying that soon States would go bankrupt -- something I don't remember other psychics, or anyone else for that matter, talking about. All part of an interesting, planned in advance, assault on the working class :( . . . I also said there would be "ghost towns" and I wasn't talking about Sunnyvale, South Dakota.
Major cities, with no work, no funds to maintain themselves . . . not a fun time.
And there's more. I wrote about it and did over a thousand hours on air talking about it . . . that "unbelievable ridiculous scenario" that I outlined, in detail, has played out almost exactly as I said it would . . .
I predicted radical reductions in state services, radical reductions in the number of policemen and firemen, predicted a public education system in crisis (I mean, who wants poor kids who can think) . . . basic infrastructure problems at every turn . . . we now have counties digging up paved roads and using gravel, cities without enough electricity to burn street lights, "brown outs" with no district fire departments -- here is a direct quote of mine, from 2007-2008, that I repeated quite a bit.
I said soon "if you have a fire in your home you had better have your Master Card ready and your Fire Safety Provider on speed dial . . . or bummer fuckn day."
So, with the wind in the sails that comes from a history of betting against the house -- and winning . . . I expect March and April to be, how should I say it, "stressful".
However, no matter what happens over the next few months, I still believe 2011 is a golden time . . . I do; there are still heads left to roll, futures to be destroyed, dreams to die. But, even still, 2011 . . . ultimately . . . is when things begin looking up.
Just not quite yet.
Apprentice, with shoes
*Originally posted January 16, 2011
If I could have taken another road to get to where I am, without giving so much along the way, I would have gladly taken it. If I had been able to carry everything with me, surely I would have done that, too. And perhaps that way was there -- but I couldn't see it and so I took the only road I could find in the darkness, hoping it was the right one.
I never knew what would happen, where I would end up; this was no package tour. The tourists didn't go there . . . even the crazies feared where I was headed but . . . I could hear something and so I was curious and left the house and wandered after it -- a child chasing a butterfly, a god-thirsty beggar chasing a dream.
All things of value come with a price and I have accumulated lots of information, brochures from the highway, as a result of following my own unique Siren's call. I am happy with where I landed and the trip, even though there were skinned-up knees and sleepless nights, is filled with stories that I cherish, memories that your safety net couldn't hold -- no matter how long and winding it may have been.
I have seen things and I continue this wandering path towards . . .
If I could have taken another road to get to where I am, without giving so much along the way, I would have gladly taken it. If I had been able to carry everything with me, surely I would have done that, too. And perhaps that way was there -- but I couldn't see it and so I took the only road I could find in the darkness, hoping it was the right one.
I never knew what would happen, where I would end up; this was no package tour. The tourists didn't go there . . . even the crazies feared where I was headed but . . . I could hear something and so I was curious and left the house and wandered after it -- a child chasing a butterfly, a god-thirsty beggar chasing a dream.
All things of value come with a price and I have accumulated lots of information, brochures from the highway, as a result of following my own unique Siren's call. I am happy with where I landed and the trip, even though there were skinned-up knees and sleepless nights, is filled with stories that I cherish, memories that your safety net couldn't hold -- no matter how long and winding it may have been.
I have seen things and I continue this wandering path towards . . .
The Separation
*Originally posted January 15, 2011
It's really interesting how each year over the past 5 my predictions for the upcoming year's "trend line" were all thought unlikely to happen (and, of course, for the most part the year did, in fact, play out pretty much just the way I said it would) and it holds true again this year, too -- only in a completely different way. In the past my "predictions" were seen as perhaps too harsh, foreclosures and floods, bankrupt state's, massive long-term unemployment, political corruption and wars that dragged on and on and ON -- while this year seems, so far, like Hell Reborn yet I keep saying it will be a wonderful vibrant positive time.
I still believe that and will say it again -- 2011 is a magical year. You'll see over the next 12 months that's true, no matter what happens until then. I also believe this will be a "sorting out" year . . . not between "the haves" and "the fucked" (my rather accurate, I think, description from back in 2007 of the "two classes" to emerge from what I kept shouting would soon be a very DRAMATIC economic "correction") . . .
but between "the attuned" and "the tone-deaf".
This is THE YEAR when the spiritually attuned "see" . . . when the promises of the heart and the faint echoes of the spirit begin to make sense. The energy is different now, the air is different . . . the wind will blow in the direction of good for those who can feel her breath; the sky will turn colors for those with eyes perceptive enough to see the variants . . . for those "plugged in" to their spiritual core, THIS is the beginning of something truly beautiful.
It's really interesting how each year over the past 5 my predictions for the upcoming year's "trend line" were all thought unlikely to happen (and, of course, for the most part the year did, in fact, play out pretty much just the way I said it would) and it holds true again this year, too -- only in a completely different way. In the past my "predictions" were seen as perhaps too harsh, foreclosures and floods, bankrupt state's, massive long-term unemployment, political corruption and wars that dragged on and on and ON -- while this year seems, so far, like Hell Reborn yet I keep saying it will be a wonderful vibrant positive time.
I still believe that and will say it again -- 2011 is a magical year. You'll see over the next 12 months that's true, no matter what happens until then. I also believe this will be a "sorting out" year . . . not between "the haves" and "the fucked" (my rather accurate, I think, description from back in 2007 of the "two classes" to emerge from what I kept shouting would soon be a very DRAMATIC economic "correction") . . .
but between "the attuned" and "the tone-deaf".
This is THE YEAR when the spiritually attuned "see" . . . when the promises of the heart and the faint echoes of the spirit begin to make sense. The energy is different now, the air is different . . . the wind will blow in the direction of good for those who can feel her breath; the sky will turn colors for those with eyes perceptive enough to see the variants . . . for those "plugged in" to their spiritual core, THIS is the beginning of something truly beautiful.
When is "enough" simply too much?
*Originally posted January 12, 2011
When I was young, I worked hard, really hard, to be "cool" -- I made myself (and made is the proper word, here) into the ULTIMATE pretty boy jock thang because I felt, for a whole host of reasons, that I just "wasn't good enough" without it.
This was great, up to a point, but my relationships really became just a series of "yes votes" as to how successful (or not) I was in that pursuit of physical beauty and athletic skill. The need to "prove" was too strong; it was all that mattered.
I couldn't "accept love" because it was all about "proving I deserved it". I didn't care about money or security or anything else -- it was the pursuit of physical "perfection" that drove me. If I worked out 4 hours on Tuesday, my goal was 5 (or more) on Thursday . . . four hours of basketball every day, 5 hour tennis matches, then an hour running steps in the parking garage behind the hospital.
But no matter how much I did, or how fit or how beautiful -- no matter how many girls, no matter how much of whatever the yardstick of the day might be -- it was never, truly never, enough. I could never be happy where I was because I was always trying to "add to my stats". A faster time in the 40, more home runs than the week before, the best player on the court (basketball OR tennis) . . . the most girls, the best-looking girls . . . no matter what I had -- or who I was with . . .
it was never
Enough.
I don't think I am alone with this, either. I also think it is likely more common now, as well, than it was back then. I bring all this up to make this point . . . all that work, all that effort was done not in the pursuit of some lofty athletic goal -- it was done out of fear. Pure and simple.
The fear that I had "no value" unless I was a star athlete, a "stud". It was also based on some compensatory yardstick, too -- since I had failed "to prove it" in the way I'd have liked when I was 15, the need to prove it over and over and over again all throughout my twenties AND thirties (and, to a lesser extent, believe it or not, my forties, too) was incredible. Totally obsessive. Petal to the metal . . . all the time.
The fear never really subsided that I didn't truly "deserve love", that I wasn't good "enough". Probably most of us have, at one time or another, gone through a period in which we felt too fat or too thin or too poor or too something. Too much of something bad, not quite enough of something good.
Conditional love -- with an unrealistic measuring stick perhaps making it even more unattainable. I wasted so much time worrying about what other people thought, basing my self-esteem on their opinions, totally incapable of loving myself without an audience or a trophy. It was a waste -- not the doing, that was fine.
It was the fear that without this "approval" I was nothing. THAT was the waste.
It was hard for me to get past that, as I imagine it may be for others. But love is not ONLY about playing shortstop or having a 29 inch waist. It is about accepting who you are and being content in your skin . . . contentment, I believe, is a key piece in finding, accepting, and ultimately sharing in a loving working partnership.
Believe in yourself. I tried so hard to "prove" myself that I failed to realize it was impossible "to prove anything" going about it the way I was. I was too lost. Young girls starving themselves, getting cosmetic surgery or breast enhancements when they're 13. Boys taking steroids . . . pushing soooo hard. At what point does this artificial barometer become oppressive?
When is "enough" simply too much?
When I was young, I worked hard, really hard, to be "cool" -- I made myself (and made is the proper word, here) into the ULTIMATE pretty boy jock thang because I felt, for a whole host of reasons, that I just "wasn't good enough" without it.
This was great, up to a point, but my relationships really became just a series of "yes votes" as to how successful (or not) I was in that pursuit of physical beauty and athletic skill. The need to "prove" was too strong; it was all that mattered.
I couldn't "accept love" because it was all about "proving I deserved it". I didn't care about money or security or anything else -- it was the pursuit of physical "perfection" that drove me. If I worked out 4 hours on Tuesday, my goal was 5 (or more) on Thursday . . . four hours of basketball every day, 5 hour tennis matches, then an hour running steps in the parking garage behind the hospital.
But no matter how much I did, or how fit or how beautiful -- no matter how many girls, no matter how much of whatever the yardstick of the day might be -- it was never, truly never, enough. I could never be happy where I was because I was always trying to "add to my stats". A faster time in the 40, more home runs than the week before, the best player on the court (basketball OR tennis) . . . the most girls, the best-looking girls . . . no matter what I had -- or who I was with . . .
it was never
Enough.
I don't think I am alone with this, either. I also think it is likely more common now, as well, than it was back then. I bring all this up to make this point . . . all that work, all that effort was done not in the pursuit of some lofty athletic goal -- it was done out of fear. Pure and simple.
The fear that I had "no value" unless I was a star athlete, a "stud". It was also based on some compensatory yardstick, too -- since I had failed "to prove it" in the way I'd have liked when I was 15, the need to prove it over and over and over again all throughout my twenties AND thirties (and, to a lesser extent, believe it or not, my forties, too) was incredible. Totally obsessive. Petal to the metal . . . all the time.
The fear never really subsided that I didn't truly "deserve love", that I wasn't good "enough". Probably most of us have, at one time or another, gone through a period in which we felt too fat or too thin or too poor or too something. Too much of something bad, not quite enough of something good.
Conditional love -- with an unrealistic measuring stick perhaps making it even more unattainable. I wasted so much time worrying about what other people thought, basing my self-esteem on their opinions, totally incapable of loving myself without an audience or a trophy. It was a waste -- not the doing, that was fine.
It was the fear that without this "approval" I was nothing. THAT was the waste.
It was hard for me to get past that, as I imagine it may be for others. But love is not ONLY about playing shortstop or having a 29 inch waist. It is about accepting who you are and being content in your skin . . . contentment, I believe, is a key piece in finding, accepting, and ultimately sharing in a loving working partnership.
Believe in yourself. I tried so hard to "prove" myself that I failed to realize it was impossible "to prove anything" going about it the way I was. I was too lost. Young girls starving themselves, getting cosmetic surgery or breast enhancements when they're 13. Boys taking steroids . . . pushing soooo hard. At what point does this artificial barometer become oppressive?
When is "enough" simply too much?
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Dot Com Redux
The dot coms have come and dot gone, dot gummit; the housing bubble ?? -- well I think that's passed -- but, nonetheless, it seems likely to me that gamblers gotta gamble on something. So I expect another Venture Capitalized pre-IPO tech boom to start VERY shortly . . . geared towards 3 primary areas (a) "green" energy (and the technology to support it), (b) "home" health care (which will change the landscape for people working in health care, very dramatically, I expect, within the next 10 -15 years) and . . . (c) competitors to Facebook. Social Networks are, imo, part of the next BIG boom / bubble.
2011 is likely to look a whole lot different than 2009/2010.
I have sat on the sidelines watching the economy crumbling but the steam that drives that train is still smoking. A lot of people were crushed in the last wave -- but the survivors are in a strong position to move forward. I think 2011 is truly going to be an entertaining year -- one that could see movement forward in several areas that, on the surface at least, may appear contradictory.
2011 is not going to be a year that will be easy, for most, to predict. A magical time, but a time of intrigue, as well. Hold on tight, 'cause this year is the time to fly. 2011 is NOT a year to sit back, it is not a year to sleep through . . . it is a time to make things happen.
Businesses will soon come, cash in hand, moving towards the next big thing. And that big thing is driven by technology and health care . . . cars will soon be replaced (yes I said "replaced") by a better way to get around. It may take 30-40 years to fully do it but it would not surprise me within the next 2-3 years to see very specific plans -- and the shell of the technology to drive it -- already on the table. There will also be a very strong secondary market emerging -- what to do with the parts? Technology to recycle and re-use old tires and fenders will be VERY important before 2050.
Food will soon go back to a more "natural" state. GMO's (Genetically Modified) will face greater and greater resistance. Thank a hippie tree hugger next time you see one (and I think I fit into this category) because this, too, I believe is coming. Many HUGE corporations will soon be split into smaller, more manageable subs . . . Employment opportunities will be abundant within 12 months; this after 3 years of virtual 15-20 % unemployment -- although wages will not likely return to "pre-crash" levels for most people.
However, all in all, I think 2011 will be a positive year. I would expect this to be revved up and rolling by . . . August.
2011 is likely to look a whole lot different than 2009/2010.
I have sat on the sidelines watching the economy crumbling but the steam that drives that train is still smoking. A lot of people were crushed in the last wave -- but the survivors are in a strong position to move forward. I think 2011 is truly going to be an entertaining year -- one that could see movement forward in several areas that, on the surface at least, may appear contradictory.
2011 is not going to be a year that will be easy, for most, to predict. A magical time, but a time of intrigue, as well. Hold on tight, 'cause this year is the time to fly. 2011 is NOT a year to sit back, it is not a year to sleep through . . . it is a time to make things happen.
Businesses will soon come, cash in hand, moving towards the next big thing. And that big thing is driven by technology and health care . . . cars will soon be replaced (yes I said "replaced") by a better way to get around. It may take 30-40 years to fully do it but it would not surprise me within the next 2-3 years to see very specific plans -- and the shell of the technology to drive it -- already on the table. There will also be a very strong secondary market emerging -- what to do with the parts? Technology to recycle and re-use old tires and fenders will be VERY important before 2050.
Food will soon go back to a more "natural" state. GMO's (Genetically Modified) will face greater and greater resistance. Thank a hippie tree hugger next time you see one (and I think I fit into this category) because this, too, I believe is coming. Many HUGE corporations will soon be split into smaller, more manageable subs . . . Employment opportunities will be abundant within 12 months; this after 3 years of virtual 15-20 % unemployment -- although wages will not likely return to "pre-crash" levels for most people.
However, all in all, I think 2011 will be a positive year. I would expect this to be revved up and rolling by . . . August.
Love and Fear and all THAT
It is by opening again to love that I open once again to everything else. All I used to have (and more) will come back to me now that I have worked through this terrible fear -- the fear that you could love so much that losing it would, literally, kill you.
I was never like this before my darling baby Lehna died and it has taken me quite a while to come back (almost 5 years). But the lesson I've learned is this -- to deny love because you're afraid is to be a member of the walking dead. Love (for me and I expect for others, too) is LIFE :)
I am thankful for so much . . . but it is my ability once more to love, without fear, that has re-awakened me. I have lived flat out in many ways, a high wire act with a flimsy net but, still, all that was done with a closed heart. I was daring life, really, to just take me. Just . . . fucking . . . take . . . me.
I was daring it . . . and now -- I have stopped taking, and issuing, that dare.
Love heals. That I know; that is what the past 5 years has taught me.
I was never like this before my darling baby Lehna died and it has taken me quite a while to come back (almost 5 years). But the lesson I've learned is this -- to deny love because you're afraid is to be a member of the walking dead. Love (for me and I expect for others, too) is LIFE :)
I am thankful for so much . . . but it is my ability once more to love, without fear, that has re-awakened me. I have lived flat out in many ways, a high wire act with a flimsy net but, still, all that was done with a closed heart. I was daring life, really, to just take me. Just . . . fucking . . . take . . . me.
I was daring it . . . and now -- I have stopped taking, and issuing, that dare.
Love heals. That I know; that is what the past 5 years has taught me.
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